iamom | low walls, barely there

kundalinidreams
You raise some interesting reflections about non-duality in your journal, but I can't say I have any answers to these questions myself. I more or less simply ditched the entire subject when I couldn't find any satisfactory answers. They may return some day.

iamom
You've more or less ditched the subject altogether? That's interesting. You haven't ditched the self-observation or analysis though, which I have found fundamental to the 'practice,' such as it is, of nonduality.

How would you characterize your world concept right now then, in the light of your recent awakenings and other insights into the nature of your Self?

kundalinidreams
The self observation and analysis is probably a defense mechanism and a habit, maybe even some kind of hard-wiring on part of the brain, than any conscious effort to practice, which I can't do. It seems I can't put effort into anything these days.

I practiced self-enquiry until I wasn't able to and that was my practice. Maybe the self-observation is a way to keep the plates of the mind together for the time the thoughts last? I don't know.

Characterise my world concept? I'd say everything is present as it is except me, a multitude of thoughts and some emotions. I speak and hear myself speak as if from a tape recorder (and you know how nice your own voice sounds when it's from a recording).

Human beings are different containers, self-contained units of awareness, but there is also a big hole at the bottom of this container which is continuous with everyone's, I almost said "bottom", but that would be wrong :-), which is continous with the extended thought sitting behind everything.

Jean Klein was asked how his relationship to friends and family changed after he awakened and his reply was: "There is no relationship because there is no one else."

I'd say that is a truth which could be modified, but seeing how low the walls between one individual person is to the other disturbed me at first. Now I'm marvelling at how low these walls really are.