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Jan. 15th, 2001 11:50 pmMon 15 Jan
If this were to proceed according to traditional plan, I would be looking back over the week, nostalgic about the week's glimpses, and wishing I could hold onto the glimpses for longer periods. Something feels genuinely and permanently different about it this week, though. A new, thick layer was peeled off, and I won't be putting it back on again.
The sense of the whole thing is different now. I'm not worried about what I'm thinking, doing, or the philosophy behind it. The dilemma, which I used to perceive as inherent to most life situations, has mostly been shelved for its newfound discovery of meaninglessness.
If this were to proceed according to traditional plan, I would be looking back over the week, nostalgic about the week's glimpses, and wishing I could hold onto the glimpses for longer periods. Something feels genuinely and permanently different about it this week, though. A new, thick layer was peeled off, and I won't be putting it back on again.
The sense of the whole thing is different now. I'm not worried about what I'm thinking, doing, or the philosophy behind it. The dilemma, which I used to perceive as inherent to most life situations, has mostly been shelved for its newfound discovery of meaninglessness.
