disappearing timeline

The new Radiohead is the bomb. It's a live album, and I've always wanted to see them play live. Good early morning music to wake you up.

The following might be hard to describe, but I want to try. As I've sunk deeper into this awareness of the Self in the past six months or so, I've noticed that I have a "to do" list associated with my old life. That is, I've had several things to wrap up or take care of (financial, job-related, whatever) that were left over from "before realization," if I can call it that. I've been slowly but steadily taking care of these last straggling details of my former life, and I feel like once I've finished, that the self as I previously knew it will be gone. These last "to do" items are the only strings that have kept my old self hanging around. My life "post-realization," if I can call it that, has brought about an understanding that there is nothing to be done; therefore, my life since that point is understandably simple: no questions, no problems, no sacrifices, no to-do list.

A little while ago, I felt something akin to bereavement for the dying away of that previous life and personality, but I've come to fully embrace that, now. I am the salt doll thrown into the ocean, instead of the boat being tossed about on the wavy surface.

I am I AM.

plugging LJ and I AM

C: (10:03 AM) wow, that journal sounds cool. is it public?
iamOM: (10:04 AM) Certain parts are. You can restrict viewing access to any group of people as you wish: the public, "friends" only (other LiveJournal users whom you have identified as a "friend" i.e. acceptable reader), subset of your friends according to your wishes, or completely private.
iamOM: (10:05 AM) You can also disable the message boards if you don't want to receive comments on your entries.
C: (10:06 AM) that's going to be so cool to look back on later on.
iamOM: (10:07 AM) Actually, I had some fun by data entering some old paper journal entries of mine - they go back until 98 or something on the web now. And it's very, very trippy to look back over those times in the past and see what I was thinking about.
C: (10:08 AM) i bet they're worth a read...
C: (10:08 AM) you're going to make it very easy for yourself to write an autobiography.
iamOM: (10:08 AM) I hadn't thought of that. I don't think I could ever write one, though. At least, not in the form of a full-length book. I can give you my autobiography in two words: I am.