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iamomSat 9 Jan
This book represents the cycle of my life. It has ups and downs, lots of recurring themes, but no significant breakthroughs. Yet.
Well, wait now, that's not quite true. I've had these glimpses of awareness at times, which could be considered breakthroughs of a sort.
My question today is, "how can I seize the awareness brought about by the breakthroughs to make true advancement, true progress? What's holding me back, what's keeping me in place?
Some parts of me are in a rut, it seems. However, I've thought a lot lately about how natural my progression in life has been, and whether or not I'm following that natural progression.
I definitely feel like I'm going with the flow - I'm not really trying to push the envelope that much. But sometimes I wish that Nature would progress further, and faster. I want to know if I can accelerate this travel, moving farther, faster, on the path. I feel somewhat bereft of tools or experience (e.g. a truly still mind, acture powers of concentration), but I do feel like under the right circumstances of my own will, I should be able to start making a real difference in my own life as well as others. (Of course, I just pointed out that I don't really push the envelope myself that much, so maybe that's why I'm not moving so fast...)
There's a real art to living life here on Earth mindfully and without conflict. The true artist is one who has mastered that art, the Art of Living. (Is there a correlation between the Elizabethan conjugation "art" (like "thou art," from the verb "to be" and referring to "being") and the modern word, "art?" Are good artists practicing the Art of Being?)
I am quite genuinely and deeply compelled to live and work for the betterment of humanity. I still don't know what would be the most effective way to do that in my own short lifespan, but I sure think about it a lot.
My intuition tells me that the best way to start that work would be to better my own humanity, my own self, first. I have been giving a lot of thought to what that might mean, but I'm not ready to write anything down about it yet.
This book represents the cycle of my life. It has ups and downs, lots of recurring themes, but no significant breakthroughs. Yet.
Well, wait now, that's not quite true. I've had these glimpses of awareness at times, which could be considered breakthroughs of a sort.
My question today is, "how can I seize the awareness brought about by the breakthroughs to make true advancement, true progress? What's holding me back, what's keeping me in place?
Some parts of me are in a rut, it seems. However, I've thought a lot lately about how natural my progression in life has been, and whether or not I'm following that natural progression.
I definitely feel like I'm going with the flow - I'm not really trying to push the envelope that much. But sometimes I wish that Nature would progress further, and faster. I want to know if I can accelerate this travel, moving farther, faster, on the path. I feel somewhat bereft of tools or experience (e.g. a truly still mind, acture powers of concentration), but I do feel like under the right circumstances of my own will, I should be able to start making a real difference in my own life as well as others. (Of course, I just pointed out that I don't really push the envelope myself that much, so maybe that's why I'm not moving so fast...)
There's a real art to living life here on Earth mindfully and without conflict. The true artist is one who has mastered that art, the Art of Living. (Is there a correlation between the Elizabethan conjugation "art" (like "thou art," from the verb "to be" and referring to "being") and the modern word, "art?" Are good artists practicing the Art of Being?)
I am quite genuinely and deeply compelled to live and work for the betterment of humanity. I still don't know what would be the most effective way to do that in my own short lifespan, but I sure think about it a lot.
My intuition tells me that the best way to start that work would be to better my own humanity, my own self, first. I have been giving a lot of thought to what that might mean, but I'm not ready to write anything down about it yet.
