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iamomToday is Day 4 alone at home with Z (age: almost 4 months), and we're still kinda of getting into a groove with each other. We totally click sometimes, and other times, not. This morning, she gave me a little lesson about selflessness.
I wanted to put her down for a nap after her first meal of the day, but she didn't seem as sleepy as I thought she should be after having eaten. I played with her for about a half-hour, noticed that her eyelids were getting droopy, and eventually I put her down to sleep in her crib. After her breathing became slow and regular, I left the room and retreated to my study next door to work on the computer. Working on the computer was what I wanted to do this morning.
However, Z didn't seem to think this was a good idea, for she awoke within minutes with a loud yell. She has an occasional habit of doing this -- waking up instantly from deep sleep and immediately starting to yell -- and the best way to soothe her is to pick her up immediately for cuddling. I did this, and she calmed down, but I haven't been able to put her down for more than 20 minutes since that time, which was several hours ago. Just fifteen minutes ago, she finally fell asleep in her sling, and after doing some household chores I finally came up to work on the computer.
Her lesson to me about selflessness was regarding my own priorities. Lest I forget that she is our number-one priority, she maintains an almost constant awareness of her needs from one moment to the next. I'm beginning to appreciate this though, when I once sort of resented it. I think that giving her the attention she asks for is really important. I want her to be an open and honest communicator, and I believe this trait can be developed through lots of good discussion.
Heh -- that's what I've come to regard her occasional screaming sessions now -- "discussions." She just has a lot more to say than I do at the moment.
I wanted to put her down for a nap after her first meal of the day, but she didn't seem as sleepy as I thought she should be after having eaten. I played with her for about a half-hour, noticed that her eyelids were getting droopy, and eventually I put her down to sleep in her crib. After her breathing became slow and regular, I left the room and retreated to my study next door to work on the computer. Working on the computer was what I wanted to do this morning.
However, Z didn't seem to think this was a good idea, for she awoke within minutes with a loud yell. She has an occasional habit of doing this -- waking up instantly from deep sleep and immediately starting to yell -- and the best way to soothe her is to pick her up immediately for cuddling. I did this, and she calmed down, but I haven't been able to put her down for more than 20 minutes since that time, which was several hours ago. Just fifteen minutes ago, she finally fell asleep in her sling, and after doing some household chores I finally came up to work on the computer.
Her lesson to me about selflessness was regarding my own priorities. Lest I forget that she is our number-one priority, she maintains an almost constant awareness of her needs from one moment to the next. I'm beginning to appreciate this though, when I once sort of resented it. I think that giving her the attention she asks for is really important. I want her to be an open and honest communicator, and I believe this trait can be developed through lots of good discussion.
Heh -- that's what I've come to regard her occasional screaming sessions now -- "discussions." She just has a lot more to say than I do at the moment.
