lean

[iamom]

I wonder sometimes, if I was ever really meant to have a job at all. I'm really quite perfectly content to sit quietly and not really do anything but look out the window, walk around the house, walk around outside, or whatever. In the past, I would feel guilt or anxiety about this -- as though I was really supposed to be doing something -- but I sure don't feel that way anymore. I could spend the rest of my life here, sitting quietly and not doing anything else of substance. I'd be perfectly happy doing that - it's clearly in my nature to do so.

Soon I have to leave to go to my Psych tutorial. I went to my first class last week - a first-year, Intro to Psychology course, one of three electives I need to take in order to finish my old degree. It was a real mind trip. First of all, the class is huge - there's like 200 people in it. And second, everyone is super young! I arrived late, so I had to sit at the front in one of the few empty seats, but when I left the room with the throng, I couldn't help but notice all those young faces and bodies there. The last time I attended university was only five years ago, but these kids look a lot different than I remember them from that time. Now, the girls are all wearing tight, revealing clothes, and about 1 in 4 people seem to have cell phones with them. How times change.

Christ, I sound like an old fogey. Okay - off to class I go, then.